Hello my friends, it's me again! I'm surprisingly not dead!
Unfortunately I've had a bit of a shit time of it the past... ugh, two years? More-so the last year and 2 months.
Anyway, life's really not... doing much for me. I've been trying hard as hell to draw and participate in my hobbies and live, I've seen various psych clinics and autism support groups but I keep ending up on waiting lists and waiting lists going on seemingly endlessly.
After some stuff that happened last year that made my life kinda fall apart around me, I tried to reinvent myself a little and got a new job, it's okay! I guess? It's no worse or better than my old job overall I suppose, but it's very draining mentally and I use up pretty much all my energy doing that.
I've REALLY TRIED to get on with comms and such, like
really tried, I have a tonne of WIPs on the go (some pretty damn far) but I can't feel satisfied or confident with what I'm producing. And honestly the fact I keep feeling more and more guilty about the delays is impacting on my productivity more than anything.
For my commissions I always tried to request payment upon completion because I know my mental health can be patchy but I know a few people insisted on paying beforehand etc, I'm not sure who, I'll see if I can find my old list and @ anyone effected in the comments.
Anyway, I'm paid on the 15th and I'm feeling somewhat confident that this coming month is going to be a little easier... generally, at least I hope so.
Anyway, if you've commed me and I've not finished whatever it is, no matter how far I've got, please contact me via notes or more preferably dis.cord (4D# 6969) and I'll refund you.
(I will be checking on my old lists so please don't try get free money from me, if you're a friend and need help, lemme know! I did keep everything decently organised so I have a list of all old comms + payment status + progress status etc)
My sincerest apologies for the long delays you've experienced and the long delay for me to get to this point, I've really been just holding on hoping I can satisfy once things get better but that's kinda not happening for me currently so I'm just gonna clear my conscience of this and try and get on and progress with personal projects and maybe take on a more controlled workflow in the future if I ever decide to take commissions again, hopefully in a more stable mindset and living situation.
I am really hoping on focusing on developing my art more to a point where I'm satisfied and confident working, perhaps spending more time putting love into my own OCs and working on other forms of art in projects etc.
Seriously I love you all, I thank everyone for being so patient with me through this shitty chapter in my life and I really hope the next one for me (and everyone else) comes soon and brings with it some luck and happiness, it's really all I can hope for myself and my friends and family.
Warmest and most loving regards,
Fourd